As time passes, I'm getting more confused about yesterday, or at least so it seems. I've not been analyzing anything on purpose, quite the contrary, but idea's, feelings and emotions keep racing through my head.
Right this moment, I'm doubting everything, especially myself and I know that can't be the solution nor the state of mind I should be in. If I allow this to happen it would depress me, and I'm not into that.
On the other hand, why am I expecting to feel some specific emotions anyway? It was a first time, I should just let it all come to me and deal with it as time evolves. If I started writing an experience now, it would be totally different as if I had written it earlier today. Maybe it ain't such a bad idea to write both the positive as well as the negative side of the story down. This suspension ritual is much more powerful than I ever imagined, and it's shaking my world.
I won't be processing images nor video until I am ready to do so. Sorry for those who'll have to wait to see more footage, but I have to deal with myself first now.