Waiting

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I've been sitting by the phone for the past hour or so, expecting a call from the vet. I'm not delighted to get that call to be honest, as I presume it's gonna be bad news, and even though I won't be able to change fate, I wish I could. This really sucks and a few days ago my sis asked : ain't it hard to love these ferrets so much, yet have to lose them so soon? Yes, it is... but the question always remains

Is it better have loved and get hurt, opposed to not love at all?

When it comes down to my ferrets, I take the "getting hurt" part with it, because these fuzzies give me so much joy. Strangely enough - and when I think about it hard - I don't think I'm open for love myself, I automatically stay at a distance.

I've been hurt before - but not *that* bad - and yet there is that defense mechanism always kicking in. Last time I "confessed" my feelings to/for a certain someone, it didn't quite turn out into what I hoped it would. It did however turn out to what I expected. (Well, that's not really fair to say... I know very well the situation at the time was seriously fucked up, and although there seems to be better times ahead, I think we're a loooooong way from ever having a chance at it again. And that's all I want to say about it for now.)

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im so sorry to hear the news j :( even tho I havent had the chance to meet your fuzzies yet I know how it feels to have a friend, I dont think "pet" is an adequate word in this case because they become part of the family. Still I wish the best for you and the fuzzies in the future!

im so sorry to hear the news j :( even tho I havent had the chance to meet your fuzzies yet I know how it feels to loose a friend, I dont think "pet" is an adequate word in this case because they become part of the family. Still I wish the best for you and the fuzzies in the future!

scratch the first post cos it was wrong damitt

Damn! She was still so lively and sweet when we took her to the vet. I feel sorry for Pluchke, and for you. Poor words, I know. But when it comes to express feelings words always fail.

I think maybe it's easier to open up to animals because they always give that love back. They are so easy to please and make happy, people aren't. Plus they're soft and fuzzy, always a big plus. I'm sorry about Plushie *hug*

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